I’m back people………..
So writer’s block did it’s thing again and well I was not in a good space to write for a while but here I am now…..
That Tuesday night, I ended it all
I ended what was supposedly “us”
What is “us”? Was there even an “us”?
All in all, I ended it. I said goodbye, something I’m way too good at.
As I tried to sleep, for the first time in a long time I cried, not just from the pain in my heart but the anger that had taken over my body.
I could not fathom why you made such a decision.And I doubt I ever will.
We didn’t stand a chance, so sad but it’s true.
I stared at the ceiling for a few seconds,i tried my best for no one to hear me cry
And suddenly the tears stopped flowing. Just like that, I was empty, I was numb. And I slept.
In my morning my eyes were swollen, a sight I had not witnessed in a while and I remember why, I look hideous.
This is not me. I washed my face , grabbed some coffee and went about my day.
It felt like a normal day, all was well so I thought. That’s until I saw you but you didn’t see me. You were smiling and it seems like I was the only one hurting….and that’s okay.
That Tuesday night I came to learn you are strong of will but weak of action. Something I can’t deal with.I don’t roll like that.
Like I told you it is what it is
All of it ended way before it even began
I hope you’re happy with your decision
I hope you’ll find happiness one day
I hope you’ll find peace
As my mum always says :
“iliyo na mwazo hatimaye huwa na mwisho”